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Day of Green
Fire
by Tiffany C.
Marcasite strolled across her brightly lit room. She was pacing. Bored
and thoughtful. She glanced at her reflection in the seeing-glass while
passing it. Green. That was the color looking back into her through
those deeply saddened eyes of hers. Immediately, she knew with a pang of
foreboding, that she would have to continue the fight tonight as she
always did on Green Days.
All elves had an individual, natural-born gift all to themselves, that
was said to one day help them in their time of greatest need by the
elder elves, all knowing and wise. Although sometimes the way of your
gift being useful is not always able to be seen until the moment comes
that it is needed; the statement had been proven true repeatedly.
Marcasite certainly did not see what hers could be. At her time of birth
in the great maple tree of foresight eight elvin years (16 human years)
ago, her mother had been told what her beautiful, silver haired and
multi colored eyed child's gift was. It was quite a unique gift, not
given previously to any other elf to that date. It was a gift they
deemed "eye depth" for it was truly remarkable. Marcasite's eyes changed
colors depending on her mood. To be sure, her mother pinched her. Fire
red and blazing, Marcasite's eyes flashed upwards in unmistakable anger.
When asked of what use this gift could be to her daughter, the elders
answered her mother by saying that they could never really be sure, and
even if they were, they were sworn by oath not to tell. But the elders
did reveal that there was something different about Marcasite.
That became apparent when, at the age of 13, the age where most elvish
young women were out in the forest collecting flowers, she began to
seclude herself alone in her room and talking less and less, which was
most un-elven like. No one in the small community knew just what was
wrong, but the elders just nodded their heads sadly in the canopy of
their tree unspeaking of this "silent girl".
Marcasite looked away from the mirror, refusing to think of her past any
longer and wishing she had some control. She searched her mind for
something else to focus on and fill her mind with, something happy. She
glided across the room and gazed out her white marble window, detailed
with tree and leaf engravings, and looked at the soft, grassy ground far
below her. There she saw a group of elves her own age that she
recognized
vaguely from somewhere in her pained and lost memory,
standing around a flower garden smelling the flowers. Then, as they felt
her captivated gaze above them, they looked to the skies and saw her.
The group immediately turned back and lowered their voices to the hushed
tones she had heard her mother use down the hall when she was talking
about Marcasite's strange habits.
Slightly irritated by this gesture from them, she turned away and went
to her bed
racefully lowered herself onto it, thinking. Just as
she began to get lost in her confused maze of thoughts once more, she
began to wonder in the back of her mind why she did this day after day.
Answering herself, she assumed it was because thoughts cannot be
controlled by mind alone, it also takes the spirit to usher them away or
bring them in. She remembered hearing that somewhere, but didn't
remember exactly where, for her past was mostly a fog of misery except
for the outstanding Green Days, which were very vivid to her. She soon
brushed the thought away and buried it among the others lost inside her,
and placed her slivery head in her arms and slept, somewhat peacefully.
Awaking hours later from her normal, demon-filled dreams, Marcasite
glanced
again into her seeing glass. Green as a clover, her eyes
looked back at her. Only she truly knew what each color meant for her
mood, and some even she wasn't sure about. She was sure about green
though. Green was a combination of sadness, self-blame, and anger.
Everything she hated in herself. She also knew what happened when she
awoke to Green eyes. As soon as the night sky stretched her arms over
their forest home, a sudden wind would hit her that she was unable to
fend off, ignore, or block out. It was all the emotions of her
Green eyes, attacking her at once, torturing her slowly until she gave
into the uncontrollable power and preformed the most painful curse she
knew to try to override the feelings. So far, it had worked every time,
this spell of Inner Fire, that caused enough physical pain to drive it
away. Her magic was unknown by her parents and unspoken of by the
elders.
Marcasite personally liked this pain, it made her feel more real and in
touch with
reality than anything else did in her enchanted home. No
words could describe the power it gave her, to be able to drive away
these feelings, even when it seemed they had complete control over her,
it meant she still had some
power over herself.
While she was contemplating how long she
would be able to resist this time, she
realized with a gasp that it was already night. She rushed
to her window. The mother moon was high above keeping watch on her
children of the night. Marcasite panicked and ran to her mirror. Her
eyes blazing, it took her suddenly and without warning. There was no
time for her to prepare an emotional defense against it, so it therefore
took her quickly. Confused and dazed by the power, while overwhelmed by
her mind, she referred to the Inner Fire spell, to attempt to be rid of
it for at least tonight. The spell finished, she lumbered over to the
middle of her room and braced herself for the shock. Burning, it began.
A slight warm feeling throughout her body, then a burning sensation that
should have incinerated her instantly if it had been real. And yet to
her, it was real. In her mind, it was real.
No matter, the spell worked perfectly as
it always did, and the Green emotions left in a haze from her exhausted
mind and body for one more night. The result was her lying panting on
the floor paralyzed by the invisible pain, the agony of her mind
reaching its limit quickly, and the sheer overload of her fried nerves.
She struggled to her knees, her mind racing in search of an answer to
end this once and for all. For it had been happening more regularly, as
often as thrice a week and she didn't know how much longer she could
hold out like this.
Her mind slowly but surely shifted to the
answer she had been searching for and that had crossed her mind more
than once before that moment. If she ended her life, she could end the
accursed pain forever. Both the Green feelings and the addictive
physical pain she felt when they arrived. She would never have to face
any of this ever again. Mindset, she prepared herself to begin the
advanced form of the Inner Fire spell she had used on herself, a real
burning spell. This spell was so powerful, it could easily burn her
alive before she felt any warming sensation at all. Quick and simple.
She stood trembling to her feet one last
time to look at the accursed eyes on
more time accusingly before she plummeted herself into the
death they had caused. She looked at herself as she slowly brought her eyes up to look
through her own and saw an amazing thing. Blue. Blue as the sky. That was what was
looking back at her. She had only once seen that color in her whole life
that she could remember. Blue was calming, peaceful, and soothing. As
she gazed deep into them, Marcasite was filled with those Blue feelings
and quickly forgot her post- Green feelings and thoughts. She ran to the
top of the elders' tree and told them of her experience. She told them
of her blue eyes and how they had saved her. The elders nodded their
heads in agreement; another elf had been saved in their moment of
greatest need by their gift, even the one who believed the least.
Never again did Marcasite have to look
upon clover eyes, and she went back to her schooling, excelling in mind
reading, another gift of the elven people, for she was, after all, born
within the canopy of the Tree
of Foresight.
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